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keep moving...

I had an appointment last week with my OB. It was the first time I had seen her since the official diagnosis with Thomas. I had been avoiding it. The minute she walked in the room I burst into tears and we cried together. I knew that would happen, hence why I avoided her. I love her. We talked for a long while. She explained how the OR will be during the delivery and we talked about bonding with Thomas after he is born. I think about all of this to much and it is almost to much to bear. 
I should probably back up. I had another ultrasound last week. Thomas's entire brain is in the encephalocele. There is also some fluid forming around his heart. My OB thinks that is what is going to cause the most trouble for him as far as how long I will carry him. She doesn't think I will carry him much longer. Needless to say these visits are so so hard. It leaves me entirely drained. 
I really just want to crawl in a hole and sleep until I am past all of this. But...I know that will not help. I also have my beautiful family to care for. (Thank you my dear Lord.) There is soccer, ballet, track. There is a house that we are remodeling, (i can't wait to tell you all about this whole process and God's timing and hand in all of this) a house that we are packing up, dinners to make, laundry to do...you get the point. Life continues on and for that I am thankful. It is crazy beyond crazy though. I am getting by through by the Grace of God. And prayers. Dear friends thank you for that. 

(The pictures above are from our new farm. We are still trying to get that house done and ready to move into and our current house packed up. I am praying this will all happen in two weeks. I think it wil take a small miracle for that to happen but one can always hope!)

Home

Really, no matter where I go, this is where it feels like home.  When I go to the altar...when I receive our Lord...Body, Blood, Soul, and Divinity in the most Blessed Sacrament...I feel like I am home. He comforts me. He sustains me. He brings me peace and joy.

Yes, I am home.

the basement [help]

Thank you all for your comments. We miss you all soooo much. You have no idea. This move still does not feel real or permanent for some reason. I kind of feel like we are on vacation. 

OK, the garbage man. I did end up catching him. All because of a nice neighbor that I met. As I was peering out the window that morning for about the thirtieth time, I saw the neighbors across the street, an older couple,  looking at the garbage cans up and down the road. Then I saw them point at our garbage cans. They exchanged a few words and the gentleman crossed the street and started walking up our driveway. I went out and met him and he introduced himself. He gave me the lowdown on the garbage schedule and he said I could move my cans across the street on his driveway. Wasn't that nice? He suggested I call Waste Management though to let them know that I was doing that. I went inside and did just that. Isn't that crazy though? You have to call WM to let them know you are moving your cans. Like I said, a lot of rules. And I am a rule follower.

So, on the agenda today is the basement. I really don't know where to start down there. I keep avoiding it, but it really needs to get done so I am going to tackle it today. I. must. Who wants to drive up and help me? All of my Florida friends, the weather is awesome. Yesterday morning I woke up and it was 57 degrees. I drank my morning coffee on the back deck. It was wonderful. Maybe that is why I feel like I am on vacation. The high was only 80 with very little humidity and a lovely breeze.

Well have an awesome day my friends. This is where I will be...

 

 
 

Almost There

We are half way there. We are ready to leave Alpharetta, Georgia soon. Yesterdays trip wasn't to bad. I am hoping today goes just as smooth. My only complaint...John Paul has taken up screaming to pass the time. He is not screaming because he wants something or because he is upset, he is just screaming to hear his voice. Good times we are having I tell you. Speaking of good times our neighbor made a goody bag for the kids. There are Mad Libs and map books, card games, checkers, granola bars and animal crackers. It has been keeping the kids busy. She also enclosed a McDonalds gift card. Isn't that sweet? We really did have great neighbors.

on our way

Well we are on our way. We are getting ready to leave my Dad's in a little bit. The moving company finished packing up the truck yesterday. It was an odd feeling watching all of our worldly possessions, everything that we own drive down the street in a truck. What a sense of relief though knowing that it was finally done. This has been the craziest move ever. If I wrote down everything that happened I would be here all day. Let's just say it happened despite feverish kids, puking kids, a dog with emergency stomach surgery, and a child on crutches. It has been memorable.

 I cried as I locked the house up last night. We loved that house. We wanted that to be our forever house. Terry and I talked about how one day our grandchildren would come and visit us on the farm. Our cheery yellow farmhouse welcomed two new babies into our family. This was the house where we truly became farmers. My children had the freedom to go outside and freely roam. Whether it was fishing in the neighbors pond, hiking the nearby trails, or exploring the pine forest. They could just be kids and discover without fences. 

What I will miss the most about this place, about this area, are the friends we made. My friends, I am truly grateful to all of you for rallying around my family. You have blessed us so many times.... during this move, when we have welcomed new babies, and when my mom was ill. I will always remember mom's night out and the laughter. Lots and lots of laughter. We have made a lot of great memories to carry us down the road!

So, on to a new adventure!! If you wouldn't mind could you send up a prayer for our travels.

Home Again

We are finally home from our two week trip. We had a safe trip home thanks be to God. We explored our new hometown and had a blast. I think we are really going to like it in Kentucky. It was bittersweet pulling into the driveway tonight. The For Sale sign is up out front. I really love this home, and am going to miss it here. But I can't wait for us all to be together and for some normalcy. Well I am off to do some more laundry and unpack.

Saturday Thoughts

The baby is nursing so I have a moment to sit down and update my neglected little blog. We are wide open here. Still. The house is officially going to be on the market in nine days. We have to keep pushing the date off because we are just not ready. However the end is in sight!! We met with our realtor and he said we need to depersonalize our home some more. I didn't have the heart to tell him that we have 40 plus boxes of "depersonalization" sitting in storage. Oh, and our big old farm table needs to be put away for now. Apparently it eats up a lot of space in our kitchen (sigh....) So we will keep plugging along until it is done.

 The girl's ballet recital is next weekend, so we have been living at the ballet studio. I am so looking forward to the show. I love to watch my girls dance and I can not wait for the craziness to stop!

Yesterday Joe, Julia and Mary Jane participated in a Homeschool Bike Fest put on by an amazing family in our homeschool group. Tiffany at Hillside Hollow blogged about it here. The kids had a blast. I stayed behind with the littles and painted a bathroom.

Have you heard of Pandora? I heard about it yesterday and tried it out today and I am hooked. You type in the name of an artist or song and Pandora composes a stream of music in a similar genre that  you can listen to on your computer. They also have an app for your ipod or iphone. And it's FREE!  I listened to music all day long while I worked. I typed in James Taylor, John Mayer, Shawn Colvin, Dave Matthews...I may never buy another song from itunes. 

Anyway, I started this post around 11am. It is now 10pm. I have to get us ready for Mass tomorrow and then I am going to crash. 

Happy Mothers Day to all of you Mommas out there. I hope it is a blessed, beautiful day!!