Your words are like balm and your prayers are lifting us up and sustaining us. God's grace is amazing. The fact that I can carry on and feel joy at this time is testimony to that.
I started this post a week ago and didn't have time to finish and publish it. I have rewritten it in my head a dozen times. I am hesitant to blog about all of this because I'm not sure if maybe I should be quiet right now. I am finding that it does help for me to talk about all of this. And, there may be someone else out there going through this or someone else who will go through this. Maybe this will help them.
These past two weeks have not been easy. The conversations I've had with God have been constant. There have been many, many tears shed. To many to count really. But each day starts a new and I get up and carry on because my God has a plan. There is total surrender because that is all I can do. It is in His hands. I don't know what the path is before us or how this will end. I pray, hope, and try not to worry. I try.
Amazing Grace... We have so many people praying for us!! From all over the world. There are two cloistered monasteries that I know of, a small community of priests, and people that we don't even know. It is overwhelming really.
Our little baby is only two inches big. I keep imagining that hole closing up and that bubble going away and this being all a bad dream. That is the miracle I am praying for. I also know He may have a different miracle in store for us. We are trying to conform our will to God's will. Please pray for us.
Our little baby is 15 weeks today. I was sitting down the other day taking a break from a marathon cleaning session, (Have I mentioned we're moving and I'm packing up the house. (slowly that is) and I swear I felt this little one fluttering around in there. I am cherishing these moments. I am posting a picture of him/her? at the last u/s you can see the little encephalocele. We are praying it will be gone!! Our next peek at this little one is March 27. I can't wait to find out if it is a he or a she!
Praying and praying. :)
Posted by: Maryan Vander Woude | March 09, 2013 at 07:02 PM
Praying daily for a miracle!! Thank you for the update!
Posted by: Julie | March 10, 2013 at 03:53 PM
Continued prayers for you and your family! Thank you for keeping us posted.
Posted by: am | March 11, 2013 at 09:40 AM
Oh, Kirsten, it has been awhile since I've visited and I am just now seeing your posts! I will be praying daily for a miracle for you and your beautiful baby! God bless you!
Posted by: Jessica | March 11, 2013 at 10:52 AM
Praying for your precious Little one, and your tender Mama's Heart, and all your family as you walk this uncertain path trusting in the Lord! May God Bless and Keep You!
Posted by: Sarah | March 12, 2013 at 02:53 AM
Stumbled here after stumbling on shower of roses. I'll be praying for you, your family and your little one from the Uk. Much love xx
Posted by: Rosey | March 12, 2013 at 05:02 AM
Praying for a miracle for your little one! God bless you and your family
Posted by: Amy | March 12, 2013 at 07:47 AM
Praying for your baby, you and your whole family. God bless you.
Posted by: Shannon E | March 12, 2013 at 10:53 AM
Continuing to pray for you and your family and baby.
Posted by: Debi | March 12, 2013 at 03:41 PM
You continue to be in our prayers. Jesus is the Great Healer. A miracle can happen. Stay as positive and strong as you can and keep having those conversations with our Lord. May God bless you with peace.
Posted by: Kimberly Folgore | March 13, 2013 at 08:42 AM
Kirsten,
My family is praying for you and your family. I miss you, friend!!! Love...
Posted by: Pam | March 14, 2013 at 11:04 AM
Praying for you, your husband, and your beautiful baby.
Posted by: Pam | March 14, 2013 at 11:27 AM
Praying for you and your family, dear!!
Posted by: Christi | March 14, 2013 at 12:06 PM
Just popping her to check on you, Kirsten. Love to you, and I will continue to pray.
Posted by: Melissa | March 15, 2013 at 06:23 PM
Kirsten - Even for people who aren't going through something similar, I think reading what you have to write is more than helpful. Your faith and trust in God is such an example. Thank you! We are praying for you all. God's will be done!
Posted by: Drina | March 16, 2013 at 08:24 AM