Your words are like balm and your prayers are lifting us up and sustaining us. God's grace is amazing. The fact that I can carry on and feel joy at this time is testimony to that.
I started this post a week ago and didn't have time to finish and publish it. I have rewritten it in my head a dozen times. I am hesitant to blog about all of this because I'm not sure if maybe I should be quiet right now. I am finding that it does help for me to talk about all of this. And, there may be someone else out there going through this or someone else who will go through this. Maybe this will help them.
These past two weeks have not been easy. The conversations I've had with God have been constant. There have been many, many tears shed. To many to count really. But each day starts a new and I get up and carry on because my God has a plan. There is total surrender because that is all I can do. It is in His hands. I don't know what the path is before us or how this will end. I pray, hope, and try not to worry. I try.
Amazing Grace... We have so many people praying for us!! From all over the world. There are two cloistered monasteries that I know of, a small community of priests, and people that we don't even know. It is overwhelming really.
Our little baby is only two inches big. I keep imagining that hole closing up and that bubble going away and this being all a bad dream. That is the miracle I am praying for. I also know He may have a different miracle in store for us. We are trying to conform our will to God's will. Please pray for us.
Our little baby is 15 weeks today. I was sitting down the other day taking a break from a marathon cleaning session, (Have I mentioned we're moving and I'm packing up the house. (slowly that is) and I swear I felt this little one fluttering around in there. I am cherishing these moments. I am posting a picture of him/her? at the last u/s you can see the little encephalocele. We are praying it will be gone!! Our next peek at this little one is March 27. I can't wait to find out if it is a he or a she!